Your eyes are red, nose looks like Rudolph, salt stains seem to be perminately tattooed to your cheeks, so now what?
Stop checking your email and phone for messages from him.
Think about your future. It seems bleak right now.
You may be in a situation where you have no job, no place to go and no money. If you have kids you have an additional worry.
IF you planned your escape then I am hoping you had a "Go Bag" together so you aren't left without things you really need or important papers. Hopefully you have a small stash of cash on hand. If not make sure you find contact information for the nearest Women's shelter. They can provide you with information to help you on your new journey!
This is a new start for you! You can make it! Brush off those thoughts of doing yourself harm or getting revenge on him. It's pointless!
Put your Big Girl panties on and realize you can make it!
Make a list of everything you can think of that you have together. From the toaster to the ice trays!
Make a list of where you want to be in 6 months, a year or 2 years!
Do things you always wanted to do! Take up a new hobby! Spend time with your kids or pets. Learn to love yourself all over again.
Small steps but you can do it!